Selfish Society....

Selfishness seems to be a characteristic or should I say personality? that most people demonstrate. What ever happened to the sense of community and linking of fellow man with respect and regard. This money driven, broken and self motivated society has resulted in the isolation and hoarding traits that cause mistrust and jealousy of others.
How can love exist in this atmosphere? It can't as there is no trust and faith in the unknown or belief in the spirit self to allow an open heart.
There is too much 'using' of people and not enough 'giving' of self and when you do give? people think your after something or misreading your intentions in a negative space. Suspicion creeps due to holding on to past hurts and experiences instead of living in the present. The perpetuation and cycles continue from one person to the next like a sickness as negative experiences remain in the present, not a healthy way to live, and certainly not a ideal societal environment. The negative becomes the web of reference and traps peoples emotions as they relate to others using the past as the template.
Makes being a hermit attractive doesn't it?
Until we as beings undo this negative cycle and return to the spirit of the land and learn to respect really respect...this negative energy will just keep burning deeper and deeper...
Some of us are trying to change it back...but look what happened to the Natives in Canada, America, Australia, Indonesia, Amazon etc...
All boxed up in little spaces...just like us.

Been too long....

Love stinks...no matter how you look at it...I'm fed up with trying to find the thing that has eluded me hoping that this it! but turns out to be brass not gold.
Love does not exist...there is the love for children and animals but for others, for me? there is nothing but lies, betrayal, taking, energy stealing, and let downs...I'm stupid to give and give and have it thrown back at me leaving me embarrassed, used and demoralized.
What is wrong that I cannot just leave well enough alone and as my son puts it 'be 'ard and uncaring as he' I wish I could be so tough, but I can't.
I look for it, just that one thing, so simple, uncomplicated and comforting, but it is not to be for me...in love I'm a failure, it just isn't for me to find, I will not be sharing the rest of my life with that special one because they don't exist in reality, I thought they did. Deception is a cruel life mate.